I feel when I am way too happy I become severely mediocre. I find solace in my housework and cooking, I rarely pick up my pen to write, I can simply pass my day without much thinking.
It is when I am in anger, pain or fear my thoughts evolve, my writing begins. Does it make me a negative writer, is my writing influenced by my negative thoughts only? I was taking a 2 week happy gap from my blog. This morning the fear of being a negative writer has turned me into writing this. That shouldn’t be the case.
Is it true that with pain comes poetry, with sorrow comes a story, with discontentment and anger evolves a piece of writing. I hope not. I would love to be a ‘writer evolving from my happy times” too. I have learned to channelise my unhappiness, my anger, my fears but somehow I have never learnt the true expressions of happiness.
I dare say happiness and contentment turns me into a coward, a non writer, a nobody. From now on I am on a quest of becoming just a ‘writer’ regardless the state of my mind. I will pick up my pen even when I am happy and ‘can’t think’.
To happy thoughts …. much love…. here I come.